Mid term test is about to be here

As usual...i need to adjust my mind by doing this. Writing or typing...it's up to you.

I was so upset today, am i being too sensitive? hmm and for a sudden i remembered this sentence,"I'm not your psychiatrist". Am i that moody? type of 'difficult people' that my CFD teachers gave solution to deal with? am i that annoyed?? dull?
Even until NOW, i haven't finished my problem about self confident. I realized, i began get at someone who is -for me- over confident while maybe...i just envy him for able being that confident because i can't. All right maybe i should forget of what people might think about me, should i? TT

What's goin on this half term? anyway i'm having my mid term test this Monday. :S see? so fast.
These are the reason of my invisible period..............
-2 paintings

still life 1, acrylic on canvas 60 X 40 cm

"Si capi" acrylic on canvas 60 X 40 cm

-3 colour theory tasks (my fav)

"colour wheel", poster colour on A3 paper

"monochromatic", poster colour on A3 paper

"Tint-Tone-Shade" , poster colour on 30 X 30 cm paper

-3 shape and form analysis (always almost fainted after the lecture *lol)

"Shape exploration", scraps from magazine paper

"Block exploration", pencils on A3 paper

-Fontography on lettering practice

Helvetica and garamond

-some drawing principle project which are all taken for univ :p
-computer graphic introduction (really, i need laptop :(

That's all about project. Oh ya i wanna tell you a bit from my class. I'm now in DKV-G. I think this is my first time in the type of fun and solid class. They are crazy...and laugh a lot. It's good to have some clown here. Yeah...thank you for the sanguines.

What about organization? one of my goal to repair my regret is about getting involve in org. I got in Obscura, an extracurricular for Photography. :D
Onother one which is still in the progress in BEM /Student council. Frankly, it is far beyond than OSIS. Whatever the result , i should be grateful! that must be the best for me. hehe

The lassttt about my silly confusion. LOVE
I tried to be the WHOLE me. I let them see my individual side. I let them see both my cheerful and upset face. I open my mind. I didn't deny, i like to receive attention, caring, etc. But those don't mean love.
Some times i wonder about it...i miss it....but in another hand (halaq) i afraid. Then at the end i just turn it off, turn off my mind to think about love, possibilities, and anything that interfere my consentration to survive in DKV.

Maybe alone is better now. And hope just weaken me.
Break a leg for your mid term test fifiani! It's not about beating others but it's to give your best! :D