Mid term test is about to be here

As usual...i need to adjust my mind by doing this. Writing or typing...it's up to you.

I was so upset today, am i being too sensitive? hmm and for a sudden i remembered this sentence,"I'm not your psychiatrist". Am i that moody? type of 'difficult people' that my CFD teachers gave solution to deal with? am i that annoyed?? dull?
Even until NOW, i haven't finished my problem about self confident. I realized, i began get at someone who is -for me- over confident while maybe...i just envy him for able being that confident because i can't. All right maybe i should forget of what people might think about me, should i? TT

What's goin on this half term? anyway i'm having my mid term test this Monday. :S see? so fast.
These are the reason of my invisible period..............
-2 paintings

still life 1, acrylic on canvas 60 X 40 cm

"Si capi" acrylic on canvas 60 X 40 cm

-3 colour theory tasks (my fav)

"colour wheel", poster colour on A3 paper

"monochromatic", poster colour on A3 paper

"Tint-Tone-Shade" , poster colour on 30 X 30 cm paper

-3 shape and form analysis (always almost fainted after the lecture *lol)

"Shape exploration", scraps from magazine paper

"Block exploration", pencils on A3 paper

-Fontography on lettering practice

Helvetica and garamond

-some drawing principle project which are all taken for univ :p
-computer graphic introduction (really, i need laptop :(

That's all about project. Oh ya i wanna tell you a bit from my class. I'm now in DKV-G. I think this is my first time in the type of fun and solid class. They are crazy...and laugh a lot. It's good to have some clown here. Yeah...thank you for the sanguines.

What about organization? one of my goal to repair my regret is about getting involve in org. I got in Obscura, an extracurricular for Photography. :D
Onother one which is still in the progress in BEM /Student council. Frankly, it is far beyond than OSIS. Whatever the result , i should be grateful! that must be the best for me. hehe

The lassttt about my silly confusion. LOVE
I tried to be the WHOLE me. I let them see my individual side. I let them see both my cheerful and upset face. I open my mind. I didn't deny, i like to receive attention, caring, etc. But those don't mean love.
Some times i wonder about it...i miss it....but in another hand (halaq) i afraid. Then at the end i just turn it off, turn off my mind to think about love, possibilities, and anything that interfere my consentration to survive in DKV.

Maybe alone is better now. And hope just weaken me.
Break a leg for your mid term test fifiani! It's not about beating others but it's to give your best! :D

Student Orientation

Tadaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!! September arrived! A month that i'd been waiting for. Please be nice ;p

What's worth the wait? I enter the university life, ouyeah. haha. Started from 3-6 September i was attending student orientation for all new student of 2012. I'm now officially become Universitas Multimedia Nusatara's student in Visual Design. :D

It was a hectic and edgy days, but as my new thought said,

"No matter how hard it is, it will last, a day still has 24 hours"

That's true, days with lack of sleep hours finally ended, the name tag and booklet things...all done. haha. Anw i was taking my role as a leader this time. Hmmm sometime we need to try a new thing, isn't? for me become a leader inspite of apatism is a new thing. practice my caring and controlling skill.

My group is Wahidin Soedirohoesodo,  take after the name of a patriot who established Budi Oetomo.
Our PIC, name Elvina Lee, is cute and let's say kind (?) hehe. She is taking journalism, now on her fourth semester.

We are 13 ( 6 for visual design, 1 accounting, 2 IT, 4 communication )

We are a cooperative group but not really ambitious. 5 blue stickers and NO red sticker. ^^ proud of you guys. Become TOP 25 (there is 70 groups if i'm not wrong) is enough for us. Those top 25 attended inaugural lecture last Saturday in Function hall and the rest are in class with streaming system. 

Randomly, our group also being chose to directly see a ceremony for our new building "New Media Tower" on the same day. I saw Jacob Oetama, the president of Kompas-Gramedia Group. I like to hear his voice especially his accent, type of an elderly but wise. Here is his picture, i took the picture using my BB torch with a max zoom. ><

Jacob Oetama giving speech in inauguration of the new media tower building

So far...i enjoy the environtment of my campus, the technology that it offer. Except my worry of how some new student are rather formal and dominant. But...i surrender all, i come for studying, i'm nothing without Him. :)
God, whatever happend whatever challenge, as long as i know that You are with me, all is well. 

Ohya, i still wondering about my extracurricular, Obscura (photography)? Rencang (social)? Ultimagz (magazine)? Trace(traditional dance)? Teater Katak (theatre)?any recommendation?

But this is what makes me glad.............for 6 months i'll have a long weekend. No lesson on Friday. Hip hip horreeeiiii  \^-^/

August Postcard review

Hello! The busy bee back here to show you ten of the postcards that i've received in August. :)

From Irina In Ukraine | Received Aug 10th'12

From Carolyn in Canada | Received Aug 10th'12

From Conchi in Spain | Received Aug 16th'12

From Mikayla in Taiwan | Received Aug 16th'12

From Evita in Japan | Received Aug 27th'12

From Maaike in Netherland | Received Aug 29th'12

From Sonja in Germany | Received Aug 29th'12

This one is from my high school friend who is taking her study in NAFA Singapore. Thank you Dewi :)

From Rachel Dewi in Singapore | Received Aug 29th'12

From Hank in USA | Received Aug 30th'12

I like her handwriting.... :)

From Kerry in Canada | Received Aug 30th'12

As ussual i've chosen the best stamps for this month, there are some stamps

Netherland | Canada | USA (there is mile davis!)

Dirgahayu 67th

In this momentous independence day, i'm going to make a review of an inspirative book. Some of you may have known about this book.

http://www.merryriana.com

Tittle: Mimpi Sejuta Dolar

Author: Alberthine Endah

Pages: 362 

Publisher: Gramedia

Published: 2011

This book contains an inspirational story of Merry Riana. Based on her true story, her struggle to get ahead through difficult time. I've heard about this book for months but i already bought it on July 27th.

At the early chapter i was bored of how the writer describes the same situation again and again. I guessed, for making the reader fully understand about the hard times that merry should endures that day. I stopped a few days then continue reading again and was starting to like it. If i didn't bet that it would be inspirative maybe i had stopped. haha

Every time i read a motivation book, i stay awake and keep my mind, not all the values are good for us. But i began to open my mind in the mid of this book. I always remember pg 198:
It says about maturity needed in success and also failing. When we fails, don't blame your self and should logically analyse the cause. Also when we got success, the maturity keeps us humble.

Read a whole book can boost your energy to keep on your effort for your goals. The best of all, a connection to today. even she live in singapore (forced on may 1998 riots) , growing up, struggling...in Singapore, she still dedicates herself for Indonesia. She didn't forget her motherland.
Once more, i also sppreciate her husband who is willing to support her from the back, instead of become the stars infront. He beats his pride as a man, what a humble man. He is happy for the success of his wife, they are a model of a great team work. Fit up each other without envious motivation :)

She gets a lovely smile, isn't she?

On the earliest page you can read:
"I'm Merry Riana, dedicate this book for my lovely Country, INDONESIA."
Currently, she become a motivator in indonesia.

One day if i were in europe taking my master degree in europe, i'll remember it. :D

The last thing that i wanna mention is about our habit as Indonesian citizen. Don't we often say,"This is Indonesia....what's are u hoping for?" in Indonesian translate: "Namanya juga Indonesia...."
The phrase have a hidden meaning that the country is so bad, it's like all bad things are inherent in the soul of our country.
What i wanna say, stop cursing your country, that's true if we all know those flaws or maybe poorness but that's not a reason. Oh maybe you can barely doing that if you've done something for Indonesia (?)

MERDEKA!

Sleepover

It’s been a thousand years plan that my two bridesmaid (way of calling my best friends) wanna stay the night at my home. And.... it seems perfect in the beginning of this month to carry out the plan. Unfortunately, elfin couldn’t join us because of her pra orientation tasks from the university. That is why in this post is about me and citta only. Yup, i only have those few bridemaids. -___-

Actually i have another bestfriends,Tika in Jogja, Andari in Padang, and Ririn in Medan. What a gap between us. *sigh

Alright, we still enjoy the day together. Citta turned up in the afternoon on Thursday, August 2nd. Actually, we spent the day playing with my nephew, keeran. Citta is fond of kids and cooking, she is the most ‘woman should be’ among us.  

At 8 pm, She accompanied me to pasar modern BSD to satisfy my craving of Ronde. Finally....i got it....!!!!! I really like ronde, rangi, sekoteng, various kind of snacks from Betawi. After that we still ate Bakmi medan around there. And then going home with a full tank face.

At night,  i felt like hiding the most wanted criminal in town. Her mom phoned several times because of the camera’s charger. She lost it, actually left it in elfin’s car last hangout and elfin couldn’t find it. Meanwhile her cousin, whose the camera belongs, wanna use it the next day. Citta said, her father couldn’t stop talking about her clumsy on the way to my house. And she was desperately sad, because the original charger cost 450.000 IDR, exactly! She lost her budget for the new bag. Haha :D

But citta is still her, she didn’t ruin my day because of the problem, we still could laughing all night. Particularly on my childhood love story . Psssstttt

Then we slept with a promise to wake up on 5.30 am, jogging time!

As ussual, we failed. We did wake up early....doing a little walk in front of my house, to the yard, going back home...and made a breakfast. An omelette by Citta and Mom! Of course a slight contribution from me. :p

Tomato omelette

 It was so hurried that citta should back in the afternoon with her father cause i had to go to church on the evening.  Later we’ll spend our time in Mangga Dua, hunting for college stuff. ;)

As the end session, we did nail art together. It’s so true, two clumsy people doing nail art is a chaos.

Here is the rule, we make our left hand by ourselves and then we make each other right hand. Look at the result! Haha and you'll know what kind of chaos that i mean.

 

Citta's right hand | left hand

My left hand | right hand

THE END

July postcards review

Hi there! it's my time to show you some postcards that i've received in July. I got 10 postcards :)
I won't explain too much, i let you read the message by your self.

I always feel happy whenever i open the mailbox and there is a lovely things inside. Even when it's empty, it's still a surprise. 

The first two postcards not really arrived on the date, maybe sooner cause i already could register those cards after back from Riau.

from Egory in LATVIA| Received July 4th'12

from Nadzeya in BELARUS| Received July 4th'12

The card below isn't from Armenia, it's sent from Germany as you can read the message.

from Byurakn in GERMANY| Received July 5th'12

from Lucka in CZECH REPUBLIC| Received July 5th'12

 I wrote on my profile that i love water color picture, maybe the sender consider the card as water color? i don't know but...i appreciate all cards. :)

from Ramses in Finland | Received July 6th'12

from Sharon in Hong Kong| Received July 6th'12

from Viktoria in Russia | Received July 10th'12

The next one is a little bit special for me. I open the mailbox, i saw the picture and laughing ROTL. I show it to my sister and she was laughing either. It's a spongebob card! You will know how funny it was when you joint postcrossing...waiting from a card randomly from all over the world and one day you got a card from Australia-maybe you're hoping for a kangaroo or the theatre building- but in fact it's a cartoon character that you can easily found in your country.

from Caitlin in Australia| Received July 11th'12

It's been like a month since someone in postcrossing asking me for direct swaps. She is from Hong Kong and collecting wedding postcards for her bestfriend who is going to get married. I remember that i bought a book of cards in Kinokunia (Pondok Indah Mall) and it contains wedding theme. For the reply i asked for sparrow or water color picture of Hong Kong. Then i derived this one, a cute sparrow :)

from Alexias in Hong Kong| received July 18th'12

The last postcard in July, the first multiview cards of Goslar, a small town in Germany.

from Markus in Germany| Received July 19th'12

This far....i realized that postcard brings you surprise and also knowledge. I love surprise and love every single details it tells me.

As i said before, i appreciate all cards. But i have the best stamps of the month, and it is from.......*jeng jeng jeng........

Lucka in CZECH REPUBLIC

They're really cute :3

Bali 2012 part three

If you wanna read another related post before, click here:

• Bali part one
• Bali part two

 It will be the last chapter on my farewell vacation in Bali. Here are the last two days! ^^

Thursday, May 3rd

Unlike the other days, this thursday morning started late and sluggish. Like there will be no activities or schedule on that day, while in fact there is. We went to Bedugul, a mountain lake area between Denpasar and Singaraja. As i suspect before, this trip was bored and the lake......sorry to say but nothing special there. Except our buffet lunch at a restaurant where is opposite the lake, across the road. :9

The weather is cool but sunny. Students were busy taking picture around the lake.

I gave my 8.5 (scale 10) for the tour agency, i also like Bli Ketut who become my local tour guide during the trip. Even he is talkative and sometimes his voice annoyed, but he is friendly and really informative.

 After spending some time at Bedugul, then we went down to Denpasar again...to Joger. It's time to complete my souvenir list for my family. I felt guilt if i don't give to all my family members. I supposed to accomplish the mission on Sukowati but don't know why....i skipped. TT


As it start not so interesting then the day just ended that way. Early dinner and settle down at the hotel. What a day

So........the five of us decided to go out at night. Actually i only have 100.000 IDR in my wallet and have said that i wouldn't spend any for the night. But it was an epic failed when we found Bubba Gump restaurant. =___________________=

The movie, Forrest Gump

And it is also a big regret when i left my camera at the hotel. #doubleattacked. Rely on my nokia N8:

horrible photo| margarita toast

We got a kecak's show (traditional dance from Bali) from the drink that we ordered, a briliant service idea, isn't? I have the video but it was too incompetent and ashamed me so i won't share it here. haha
I wonder why they rimmed the glass with salt? One of my friend answered it is to avoid us drunk. Silly prediction, margaritas are made with well or low grade tequila. After i did ask the google, i knew that it is only to enhance the taste. And Just found out that....citta is easily turning red. haha :D

Oh yeah, Widi is the one who is very happy that night, couldn't be happier maybe to found the resto. He adore and inspired by the movie so much. He bought a bag, cost ? i forgot but it's not worth it for me. :p and he already found out that it was too small for him after arrived in Jakarta. wkkwkwkwk lol

That's how we spent our last night in Bali.

Friday, May 4th

Eventually we've met the last day. My second visit to Bali does't add my fondness about the place. However it doesn't mean i didn't enjoy my time there. I enjoy but.....i won't say that i miss the moment in Bali. How could it be so hard for me for totally having fun. *sigh

On this day we checked out from the hotel and went to Titiles, a shop that sells food made of pork. I didn't buy anything there, mom has worned me not to buy the food. (just because my family don't like it, but Titiles is well known in Bali). I was busy taking picture of many animals there. Breed Lion-tiger (infertile), deer, birds, tutle, etc.

I have a trick for those who wanna take picture at the zoo or anything in the cage. Often the railing avoid us to get a clear photos.This is how i got this picture, read the caption.

Use the smallest number or the wider aperture in your camera. And focusing to the object. Piece of cake? :)

Tv 1/100 | Av 2.8 | ISO 200

http://danparham.com

Hmm i finally asked the tour guide about the offerings. My friend 

shouted me when i accidental stepped on it. Bli Ketut explained it to me. He said that it's not a mistake when you step it while u're walking 

on the road. But just like when we are eating, don't disturb when the people are doing the offerings. Ussually to begin and end the day. About the content or things that is offer is depend on the people occupation. He means, if the person selling rice, most likely the offering also contains rice. But there always be flowers and water inside. Thank you Bli for the explanation :)

Straight from Titiles we went to the airport, going back to Jakarta. And that's some parts of my experience in Bali.

As a closing, let me introduce these effortless frienship between me-citta-elfin and widi-nando in Bali. Those boys accompanied us wherever we go (included doing nail art) cause they afraid that our broken hearted friend (elfin) will do something reckless. But i thank them, a little bit feel secure when we were wandering at night. In a brief,
Citta: ever wannabe a doctor but her failing to enter science class finally brought to her passion as a fashion designer
Elfin: ever wannabe a dentist but her failing to enter science class finally brought her a yellow jacket, fiscal management and dreaming will have RI 20 (fiscal ministries's) one day
Nando: he and citta is our cat and dog. I don't know what happened, nothing romantic! it's really is, cat and dog. He is now taking electro in china.
Widi: Soon become a great chef, now studying in Malaysia and will move to Ausie next year. He got a real 'comical' face.

Facing the giant

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 I put the title as i remember the title of the movie above. Honestly i forget the story (i don't remember stories, artist, and song) but it must be about problem solving. hehe i watched it at school in CFD (character formation development *eh?) lesson.

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I've my own promise that i won't post any melancholic, poem, and sort of things in this blog. But now when the situation like....swimming in the ocean without any direction and thundering typhoon is what's happening i can't help to not write anything in my mind.

The hardest part is about my mom, to keep believing that God will heal her at the right time. I said the right time because maybe we should take the process right now....we means family. How to keep strong and optimist even if the doctor said that your mom have reach the ill into stage 4.  I wish i could turn off all the negative thoughts. I afraid of losing her and that thought began to haunt me. Now you know why the blog name ouverthink.

Another problem seems smaller when you are facing something bigger. I'm starting to just let the pain flow. People can't really hurt you if you don't let your heart being hurt. Just keep it on the safe place. Hide.

At the end i just can surrender all to Him...He creates everything in this world, will it be so hard for Him to help me? Not at all, isn't?
Now imagine at the time...when my mom known as a cancer survivor...when she could share her experience to encourage others. When my family become closer to each other...more love more care. When i will be very happy to see mom and dad still together and playing with their grandchilds. No more pain no more loneliness. And the time when the family unite to praise the Lord.