Facing the giant

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 I put the title as i remember the title of the movie above. Honestly i forget the story (i don't remember stories, artist, and song) but it must be about problem solving. hehe i watched it at school in CFD (character formation development *eh?) lesson.

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I've my own promise that i won't post any melancholic, poem, and sort of things in this blog. But now when the situation like....swimming in the ocean without any direction and thundering typhoon is what's happening i can't help to not write anything in my mind.

The hardest part is about my mom, to keep believing that God will heal her at the right time. I said the right time because maybe we should take the process right now....we means family. How to keep strong and optimist even if the doctor said that your mom have reach the ill into stage 4.  I wish i could turn off all the negative thoughts. I afraid of losing her and that thought began to haunt me. Now you know why the blog name ouverthink.

Another problem seems smaller when you are facing something bigger. I'm starting to just let the pain flow. People can't really hurt you if you don't let your heart being hurt. Just keep it on the safe place. Hide.

At the end i just can surrender all to Him...He creates everything in this world, will it be so hard for Him to help me? Not at all, isn't?
Now imagine at the time...when my mom known as a cancer survivor...when she could share her experience to encourage others. When my family become closer to each other...more love more care. When i will be very happy to see mom and dad still together and playing with their grandchilds. No more pain no more loneliness. And the time when the family unite to praise the Lord.